So, sometimes I suck at being a human being. There’s nothing like the holidays to make me realise how much I don’t keep in touch with people, and I just had a friend e-mail me asking if he did something wrong because I’ve been ignoring him (it wasn’t intentional!). I feel awful when this sort of thing happens, and it seems to happen pretty regularly- I get so wrapped up in daily life that it’s easy to lose track (or forget that I saw am IM or text and never get back to someone).
Being online is a strange thing. I have 14 ways to communicate with almost everyone I know, but not everyone uses the same tools. Frequently I’m logged in but working on something else, so I miss messages. I’m getting better, but it’s still hit-or-miss at best. E-mail is a guaranteed response, but plain old e-mail seems to be going the way of snail-mail.
And I don’t like to make excuses. It’s too easy to blame things on brain fog and being preoccupied with my health- my friends and family are important to me and I don’t want to lose that. I know this happens to folks without health issues, so I guess it’s just a busy-life thing, but at the same time it’s so hard to balance where I spend my energy. Folks don’t always understand that there are really times when I am too tired and out of it to sustain a phone conversation. It’s one reason I like e-mail, I can work on it in chunks and review it before sending (I’m much more coherent that way).
I am still determined to send out cards this year and even have the address labels ready to print- hopefully I can get that started this weekend along with some decorating. But I still feel like a bad friend. *sigh*