…and then we get right back up again.
That’s the theme of this week’s ChronicBabe blog carnival, and much to my amazement I may actually get an entry done in time! How can this possibly be, you may ask? Well, I am pulling myself back together at the moment and the topic couldn’t be more timely.
I had a (literal) crash-course in rheumatic fevers the last few days. I came home early Tuesday worn and aching, afraid that I had picked up an office bug and hoping that pre-emptive rest would nip it in the bud. That evening I had terrible muscle cramps and joint pain. Staying home Wednesday was pretty much a no-brainer. Thursday I gave it a noble effort, but even after a shower and clean clothes I still felt like drek. After more sleep I felt almost human again and chatted with my doc about the sudden flare. I thought the achiness was from fighting a fever, turns out it is really the other way aorund: the flare triggered the fever.
Good news? No office bug and not contagious.
Bad news? The sustained fever is something new for me and I didn’t figure out it was a flare until it was 2/3 over. I am back at work and semi-functional today, but still achy with a low-grade temp. I just couldn’t miss any more work, however.
So I’m trying to learn how to identify flares earlier on, and walking the fine line of what I can live with at work. Two and half days out for “just” a flare annoys me, but I don’t seem to have much choice in the matter. I’m not sure what to do with this new info (other than what I’ve been doing so far).
I did manage to get some housework done, do a little decorating and roast pumpkin seeds. I still need to carve the pumpkin, but I know the design I want to do. Today I will vote after work (if I can survive the two office holiday parties. I remembered at the last minute to dress up- nice comfy gypsy clothes but forgot something for the potluck). Because of the fever I couldn’t get blood drawn, so I will get that done Monday hopefully in time for my Tuesday appointment- if not I’ll have to reschedule. I was derailed, but I am slowly getting back on track. /train metaphor
And that’s really what it’s all about, isn’t it? That pesky “chronic” bit of chronic illness. It will come back. I’ll try to do as much preventative planning as possible and take care of myself, rest during the bad times, and slowly get back up to speed afterwards. I am trying to reroute my need for long-term progress and appreciate short-term progress instead. I got a lot done while I was home and did what was best for my body.
What this means for my work schedule and load, however, that I don’t know. I’m in the middle of staff changes which makes any time out of the office problematic. I played with the idea of working from home, but I wasn’t able to sit at the desk for long periods of time. If I had brought home my work laptop maybe- I may try making it a habit that if I go home sick, I bring the laptop, just in case. Anyone else have a trick like this? It’s just so hard to know ahead of time if a flare will last for a few hours or a few days. But I got back up again.