It’s easy to be lulled by daily pain- it’s manageable. You work around it, or through it. It responds enough to medication, exercise, heat that it’s bearable.
And then real pain picks you up, spins you around and slams you up against the wall, reminding you just how brutal it can really be.
It coils in a ball at the base of your spine and throbs through every joint.
It saps your appetite and leeches the flavour from food.
It lurks when you sleep, waiting for the realization in the dark that there’s no escape.
It attacks every part of your body at once, so there is no comfort, no relaxation possible.
It makes you long for that four-day headache, that left just in time for every other part of your body to start screaming.
It makes you long for everything you don’t have that is just out of your reach.
It weakens you, body and spirit.